Yesterday, today and forever.....

I've had a disaster of a week. We don't have to rehash, but let's just say I'm still cleaning up the mess of the xmas tree falling over and it will take a carpenter to finish up the repair on the flood in my kitchen. My body is sore from painting. I'm 3 months behind on my accounting. ....we'll just stop at this point because I know you don't want to here about the yorkie pottie clean up...must have eaten an xmas bulb. Needless to say, my yogi magical powers seem to be failing me this week and I'm stressed...worried...think Vata Pita imbalance BIG time.

In the midst of all this, I found myself standing at the check-in counter in the warm sun mindlessly entering credit card transactions into the system. In a dreamy state, I had a vision of a more normal life. I imagined waking every morning to a clean house. I would make coffee, light a fire and read an actual newspaper. I would walk my dogs. I would go to the studio every day. I would sit around with my yogis and drink tea and talk about philosophy and theology. I would have a salary. My accounting would be done. My nails would be done. My hair would be done. I'd smell good all the time.

All of this left me as daydreams do and I didn't really have another thought about it. It was just a subtle thought. Later, Hewitt (our resident poet) stopped in. Hewitt is what I would describe a Sage. He's very well read, well spoken and obviously well written. I love when Hewitt pops in because he always says something that is a direct message from God to him to me. I know to listen. Busy and distracted, I wasn't listening well. The plumber had come...people were showing up for class. Still, after sharing my daydream, Hewitt said to me the phrase..."yesterday, today and forever."

This phrase is from the Bible. I googled and found a lovely poem by by Albert Simpson:

Yesterday, today, forever, Jesus is the same.
All may change, but Jesus never! Glory to His Name!

It stopped me cold. I had just been wishing for sameness. I was wishing that each yesterday and each today and each forever would be the same. Hearing this phrase made me circle back hugely in my subtle intention. You see, I hate sameness. Some part of me believes that the minute everything becomes the same and easy, I will be done with this incarnation. (Note to self: be careful what you wish for and rethink this disbelief about effortless ease)

It also struck me because within the midst of all my chaos, I'm the same. I'm always the same. Your core is complete and whole and pretty much okay with whatever is going on around you. I guess that's why in the middle of total chaos, you can enjoy the warmth of the sun. Yesterday, today and forever.